just shit

WEll I had an okay rest of the night i guess but i have so much drama with unessary people right now and there is a saying if it does not bring you peace you muct discard it. But I think in the next few days i will pound the pavement again with some resumes, I want to give my Kylie the best life that i can and i know that loving her and teaching her and being ther for her is great but I want to be a somebody that she can look up too i just wish that i had never done the shit i did when i was younger but htose were the hands I was ealt and i played them and turned out pretty good I think 8 years Clean when i could be dead! Just feel i worked my ass off and no matter whati jsut keep getting pushed down to the ground but again i will get out of this rut and make the best of 2011 I had a great visit with my nick and my joshua my kylie misses them something awful and so do I but we will see eachother more often hey new years resolution but gonna sign off god bless peace out rudegal